Introduction: Hi, I'm 24 years old and trying to start my 'adult' life now. I graduated from grad school in May and found a job recently that is hardly what I expected I'd get after graduation. This blog will just be a way for me to vent about trying to find my way in the 'real world'. I named it my quarter life crisis because I feel like I fit the symptoms and I know that a lot of other people my age feel the same. If you haven't heard the term before, visit Quarter Life Crisis. So I don't know how long this blog will keep my interest, or anyone else's for that matter, but it'll be therapeutic.
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So I'm quickly learning about what it's like to be at the bottom of an organization. I've been with this company for 4 weeks now, but I'm definitely the lowest on the totem pole. I know that I make the least amount of money in the company since I was given access to the salary information today. It's less than encouraging to know that 6 years of college, 3 degrees, and over $100,000 spent on college gets me an assistant position that someone with only a high school diploma is also qualified for. I have to keep telling myself that it's good experience and can lead to better things one day, inside or outside of this company.
The other part of my job that is awful is my temporary status. I applied for a regular full time position with this company and they hired me as a temp because I could work for them immediately. I'm still 'in consideration' for the position I applied for, but I have this temporary thing until the end of the month. I guess they were still interviewing people when I started and me being temporary would make it easy for them to dump me if I wasn't working out. I still don't like being a temp though. Being a temp doesn't really suit my personality in the first place since I like to have a plan for everything, but I've gotten over that. The thing that still gets to me is what the temporary status means to my coworkers. Some completely ignore me and act like I'm not there unless they need me for something, or they want to critique my performance. I guess they figure I will be gone soon enough and they don't need to care about the way they treat me. Hopefully I can get the regular full time position and then return the treatment on them (although that wouldn't be very nice of me and won't get me very far with the company). The other thing I heard from coworkers was that they thought I was from a temp agency, which causes even more of a divide between me and my coworkers. I did some research on the divide between temps and regular employees in school two years ago and I guess now I know what all my research findings meant.
I'm pretty sure that I will be offered the regular full time position at the end of the month, but I still can't be 100% sure. I have been given many hints towards my permanence, but nothing concrete. But I don't know how much I want to work for this company. It's a 40 minute one way drive to and from work everyday and that's getting pretty old. My only other option though is to get my own place. I don't know if I'll be making enough money to afford an apartment, let alone pay for bills and get a new car. My boyfriend and I both want to get out of our parents' houses, but he's trying to find a new job and is only working 10 hours a week right now. I can't say I don't want this job though because this was one of two interviews that I had throughout the entire summer of job searching. This was the only in-person interview and obviously my only offer. It's so sad that I was only able to find one job when I applied for about 20 over the course of 2 months. I guess that's the market right now, although I feel like things are improving.
One thing that I am looking forward to, so long as I am still working at this job, is the opportunity to go to Southpointe to see the Penguins practice during lunch breaks. The Iceoplex is about 5 minutes away from my building and I can't wait for practices to start up so I can watch them skate (and maybe stalk them a little). I only want to get my Letang jersey signed and maybe a picture with him... Staalzy would be nice too :-) There's a least one other Pens fan that I work with who will be up to going to practice too, so I don't have to be a creepster by myself over there. I can't wait for hockey season to start back up again. I'm going through withdrawal and have been watching youtube videos of hockey fights and goals just to get a hockey fix. It's kinda sad actually. I read the Stanley Cup Journal on the Hockey Hall of Fame website every time they update (Tuesdays and Fridays) just to see what all the guys are doing with their time with the cup. I was spoiled during the playoffs when I could watch a game every other day, sometimes everyday. At least football season is almost here, so I can have something to watch on weekends. It's not hockey but it's a close second to watch.
So on a completely different note, I am planning a gift for my boyfriend for our anniversary at the end of the month. I'm making a scrapbook of memories from our 7 years together, but at this point it's just a vague plan that I need to get rolling. I have the memories picked out and I made a powerpoint to map out what I want to do (I'm super lame, I know). I just need to find the pictures and put the thing together. I only have 10 days to get it done and there are 20 pages to create. I'll be whipping it together at the last minute just like I always do with things like this. That's what I need to be working on and not posting useless messages on my blog. :-)
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